To New Beginnings – pt 1
Posted by raaachem on June 3rd, 2010
“SURPRISE!!!!!”
I can’t believe what I’m seeing. My entire family, all my friends, my coworkers, my childhood friends are jumping out of the woodworks, eyes wide open. Every single person in my phone book is here. And they just yelled surprise.
“Are you surprised?” my best friend asked.
The tears involuntarily stream down my face and I whisper, “Yes.”
Whats surprising me right now, is not only the fact that everyone I love is here because of me, but because it’s finally hitting me. I’m leaving. I’m leaving all of these people who love me and I’m moving three thousand miles away. This is my despedida. Because I am going away.
I’m going away.
Instantly, I feel a pang of guilt in a heavy heart. All of a sudden I’m scared. Next week, I’ll be in a brand new city all by myself, without any of these people around. Next week, I grow up. Today though, I’m just gonna enjoy my party.
“I am on a twenty four hour, champagne diet. Spillin’ while I’m sippin, I encourage you to try it!” As I’m slowly but surely letting this champagne turn me into a belligerant camera whore, the door swings open and in He walks.
My ex.
He looks…. like shit. I had broken up with him last week because of this move, and I haven’t heard from him since. He gives me the most awkward hug I’ve ever received in my life and the guilt creeps its way back into my head. I can see the tears start to form in his eyes. It’s a familiar look – the same look my mom gave me when she hugged me today. The same look my best friend had as she was thanking everyone for coming.
I’m going away. And I’m breaking too many hearts tryna get there.
June 3rd, 2010 at 1:55 pm
i’m moving from LA to SF in a couple months…exactly what i’m feeling right now!
June 3rd, 2010 at 2:54 pm
Ahh moving.. I moved away after high school for two years and I’m finally moving back home. Both places have their pros and cons but really, there’s no place like home. And, for those two years.. I got to learn about myself in two different atmospheres (city vs. suburbs).
July 1st, 2010 at 9:06 am
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