[Same ol' G]
My friends are looking thru some old pictures of me and I don’t even recognize myself.  The guy in the picture is 120 pounds heavier, happily in love with Marie.  I look at this picture and try to remember how I was then…  and its a distant memory.  It seems like such a lifetime ago. The memory that stays with me is not of her . It’s not of one of our many anniversaries or our endless pictures or drunken times.  It’s not even a memory with her. It’s that feeling I felt when she first left me.  That fear of never being happy again.

I look to my right, and see my new girlfriend, Nicole, making fun of me in these old flicks and talkin shit with my boys.  And I realize…I AM happy.  Happier than I’ve ever remembered being.

In that instant, I want nothing more than to call Marie and thank her.  I want to thank her for breaking my heart.  For in that act, she saved my life.

[the new girlfriend]
Nick and I almost ran into G and Nicole yesterday.  We were eating at our favorite Thai spot and just as we were leaving, we saw them leaving the Pho spot a few doors down.  I texted him that we saw them, and that Nicole is pretty.   Prettier than me, that’s for sure.  

The fact that I still kept it together speaks volumes to me.   My heart didn’t race, my breath didn’t catch.. I was… FINE.  Which makes me believe I made the right decision for myself.. 

“Marie has changed her status to “In a Relationship” with Nick.”

I change my status and log off of Facebook and chuckle as I think of all the faces that will see my update.   Im putting on my leggings, getting ready to go to one of Nick’s family parties.  I promised myself to lose all this “happy weight” but maybe I’ll start after the Holidays are over.  I think I’ll enjoy being fat and happy for just a lil while longer. 

[the new boyfriend]
Swear my life has been crazier than a soap opera, but its slowly starting to feel like life again.   Marie and I are officially official, and my heart cannot be more at ease. 

I’m happy now, and to me, it was worth all the blood, sweat, and tears we endured.  Maybe one day G and I can be friends again but for now, I’ve got everything I need. 

All is fair in love and war.  And we all live happily ever after.

***EDITOR’S NOTE*** This is dedicated to my wonderful friend and his new girlfriend Nicole.  (Yes, that’s her real name).   Nic, you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to him, and for that i almost love u just as much as he does. Tenderness over.  white girls FTW!   lol***

***EDITOR’S OTHER NOTE.  For the other two people who make this story, thank you for providing me with material for this entry.  With that said, I wish you two the best. You deserve each other.***