I Used to Love H.E.R. – pt 1
Posted by raaachem on February 4th, 2010
I stood in that church with my chin held high. I held my 6 month old baby boy in my hands and smiled wider than I had smiled in a long, long time. After a tumultuous few months and unforseen circumstances regarding my son’s birth, I was ECSTATIC to have made it to this point — we were baptizing him.
I looked around at my closest friends and my gigantic family, but something was amiss. There were all my cousins, their boyfriends, my aunts, my auncles. Sitting next to them were my neices, nephews, and baby cousins. Across the way were my friends.. they took up about 20 church pews. But still, someone was missing…
I looked around at all the faces and my stomach sank. I realized who wasn’t there… my best friend.
I had spoken to Rose about being here today. I asked her to be one of Adonis’ godmothers… Why? because she was my best friend. I was the Godmother to her daughter, and although things between us had been rocky, I asked her anyways. She said she would be there and I took it as a chance to rebuild.
She had been flaky the last few months, dipping in and out of my life at her convenience, skipping out on our customary get togethers, especially the ones with all our friends there — Thanksgiving, Christmas, etc. Our other best friend had already written her off… she was fed up. But I was not. The 7 years of friendship meant more to me than a simple “fuck her.” I didn’t have the heart to cut her out of my life.
“She’s coming!” I told Marie. “She wouldn’t miss his baptism!” Marie looked at me with a look that screamed “mmmhmmmm” and I shrugged it off. She’s coming… I mean more than that to her. She’s coming.
I turned to the back of the church as they called Adonis’ name. No one. I looked at my phone, no missed call. I check again, no text. Finally, the mass is over. Still no call, no text.
I look at Marie and say a thousand things with my eyes… You know, the look you give your best friend that in an instant, tells her everything she needs to know? and instead of giving me an “I told you so”, she mouths “I’m sorry.” Cuz even tho I never had the heart to cut Rose out of my life, its apparent that Rose never had the heart to keep me in hers.
February 4th, 2010 at 10:55 am
wow, fuck rose haha. im a scorpio, so its easy for me to cut people out my life like its nothiin’. i can be heartless as fuck once someone crosses the line, messes wit a loved one, or they just plain out annoy the fuck outta me lol.
February 4th, 2010 at 12:38 pm
a true Raaachem documentary
February 4th, 2010 at 12:39 pm
yeeee! SCORPIOOOS baby! I’m a scorpio too ashley
but hmm, idk if i’m like that..
yea maybe, i never feel bad about cutting someone off cuz i always feel i’m doing it for the right reasons, so no biggie. hahaha!
but anywho, damn rose is a biitch!
id be sooo hurt if my bff didnt show up at my sons baptism, like damn </3
February 4th, 2010 at 5:44 pm
sindyyy – FOR SURE when a scorpio feels betrayed, we hold grudges forever. therefore, its easy to cut out unecessay people. plain & simple, haha.
February 4th, 2010 at 5:47 pm
btw, use diddy as an example. hes a scorpio also
& all those artist we wonder wtf happened to them, he cuts em off easily “plain & simple” lmao.
February 4th, 2010 at 10:36 pm
Gahhh… I know how that feels… I have two best friends from elementary, two from middle, two from high school. I was upset that out of the 6 best girls I shared my life with.. three of them did not show up to my debut/cotillion.
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